Mental Health

You Do Matter

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This past Tuesday, June 16, was my birthday.  I used to make a big deal about birthdays and made sure my boys had a cake, gifts and we celebrated in style with a great dinner too.  But as they got older, and I was not celebrated as much as I celebrated others, I started thinking it wasn’t a big deal and so made less and less of a celebration of other’s birthdays.  I didn’t stop, I just didn’t make it as big a deal.  I still made sure they had a cake, gift, etc., but I just didn’t go all out as I did before, especially as the boys got older, did things with their friends, and then went on to college.

I still never forget a birthday of my friends and/or family and always make sure I tell them happy birthday.  I make sure my boys get birthday cards with at least a gift card or money so they can get what they want or have a dinner on me, and I try to call to talk to them on their special day.  Unfortunately, even then I sometimes don’t get to talk to them nor get a callback.  But, now that they are married and busy, I kind of understand.  Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying I like it, but I do understand now that they have jobs, and a life separate from mine, their mom is no longer number one anymore.  Sad, but true. That is how it should be though. As long as they don’t forget about me. 😉

To top things off, with the dreaded COVID-19 putting stress on the world, having to be in quarantine, and being worried about things opening up and how to deal with the changes, well, that just added to it.  Granted, I did get lots of messages from friends and family telling me happy birthday, I was able to have lunch with my parents and had dinner with my friends across the street from me, but it just did not feel the same as it has been before.  I wasn’t at the store I manage for my parents, so no talking to people.  I didn’t have the one I love beside me to enjoy time with.  I was on my own for most of the day and evening.  I felt off the whole day and then had an emotionally charged day the next day.  Hate those days!!

I also had to remind myself that others are going through things right now too and may not be dealing well with all the changes.  They also may feel so cut off from others, they do not think of those special events or things that they normally remember because they are affected by other things happening, or not happening, in their lives.

My point is, I had a lot of thoughts and feelings in the last two days, and I want you all to know something.  I want each of you reading this to know, you do matter! Make sure that you are celebrated and have a great day on YOUR special day.  Even if it is you that celebrates you on your own. Make sure you take care of you and have fun! Yes, you want to make sure others know they are special and you remember them, but also make sure you are remembered too.  You were put on this earth for a reason.  We all were. You are worth the time and effort to be celebrated! Just know this and don’t ever think otherwise!

These are weird times we are in right now.  This too will be behind us soon and there will be better days to come.  Find something to enjoy.  Something that makes you smile.  Be silly, dance like no one is watching, laugh out loud as much as you can, love those around you, and make sure the ones you love know it.  (You really can never say it too much!)

If you ever need someone to talk to or just want to say Hi, please don’t hesitate to leave me a message.  I will respond.

I love you all!

Belle xo

(*These are thoughts and things I deal with.  Your situation and life, of course, is different, as we all are. Doesn’t make a difference if worse or better, we all matter.*)

Update

Here’s What’s Happening!

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I used to think I was weird because I was so sensitive to things and people around me.  I thought something was wrong with me. 

At times I would think, “why can’t I say what I need to say without crying or getting emotional?” Or, “what in the world am I giggling for or feeling all these butterflies in my stomach just because I want to say something?” Or the craziest of all, “why does this person make me feel overly protective over this other person,” or “wow! this person makes me feel excited and nervous when I am around them.”  

I have learned that I am a somewhat highly sensitive person. But more to the point, an empath (actually an empath with highly sensitive person inclinations), if you will, and to me, that is weird yet strangely a relief to know.  

I know many do not believe in the word and what it stands for and much less what that means about the person that is supposedly this “thing.” Believe me, I have tried to deny it for a very long time because I felt it put me in a vulnerable place, even more than just feeling it all. Now I am putting myself out there as having that ability and being looked at as weird, odd, and a bit out there.  

I now realize it is a gift that was given to me and if I trust it, I can learn from it and help others with it.

No, I am not some great person and I will never see myself as being special (I never have), but I do know I was given my many special creative gifts for a reason.  

I have decided it is now time to put my gifts to better use.  Yes, I am singing when I can.  Yes, I am writing a lot.  But, now I will put both my voice and writing together and I will be starting a podcast in a few weeks.  It will be centered around positivity.  Positivity, motivation, and inspiration from people and things in this world of ours.  

There is too much anger, hatred, selfishness, and childish acts of harm in this world.  It is time to get more love, positivity, and hope back into it.  Even if it is just a little at a time.  I am going to do my part, and put my little bit back into it, one week at a time with my podcast. Then along with that, continue throughout with content on my blog and all social media sites.  

I know it will not be for everyone.  But I will be here trying to shine a little bit of light on the world.  I will be here to share and to listen.  If I ever do not have an answer for a question asked, I will find someone that does and point you in that direction.  If there is a subject or a person you would like me to cover, please let me know.  I welcome suggestions.  Now, I will not always take the suggestions, but will always welcome them.  

I am but a small account right now.  One small voice in the many billions out there.  But, I will do my best and my part to help in some way with my voice and learning that I share.  For that is what, and all, I have to offer right now.  

So, in a week or two I will share the name and art of my podcast to look for and then in a couple of weeks, I will be giving you the information you will need for my podcasts, the places you can find it and the other social media sites as well.  

Right now, I am on twitter (@WonderingBelles) and Instagram (wonderingbelle or Belle Scribe) and I will put the information there as well.  

I am excited and nervous about this new adventure.  I know it is the right thing to do and share.  

I hope you will join me, enjoy the experiences, and share with others.  I love you all and look forward to your input and feedback once it all gets started! 🙂

Belle xo

Mental Health

Make Someone’s Day

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You want to make someone’s day today? If you are out and about today, for I know many places are opening back up, think of something nice about each person you pass or come in contact with. Even better, tell them! 🙂  Or, if you still are not going out, but are on social media, tell someone on your social media.

Now how did that make you feel? Make your day by making someone else’s day better.

There is too much negativity in the world today.  People are dealing with depression, anxiety, loneliness, and who knows what else.  If we can just make a difference by making someone smile or feel better about themselves, even if only briefly, you never know how that might turn someone around to looking at things a little differently, a little better.

It always does my heart good to get a smile or a response of thanks for just a simple nice comment.  I normally do it just because I see something about that person I like so I want to say it. Their eyes, hair, clothes, shoes, the way they carry themselves or smile.  Anything!

Have a great day and share the love whenever you can 🙂

Belle

xo

Health

What is your favorite?

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When it comes to guilty pleasures, what is yours? Do you like Coffee, wine, and/or chocolate?  I sure do! All three!! What else do you enjoy?

Have you found things you like during this time of staying home (during the Coronavirus pandemic) that you didn’t like before or hadn’t thought you would like?

I normally eat really good and only splurge every now and then on things that are yummy but not really good for me and a healthy body.  But, during this time at home, I have been baking sweets and bread that I normally would not.  So, in doing so I have done a little overindulging. Ha! Once I realized I was doing this, I started giving the things I was cooking to friends and family.  😉

I have also made things that are not bad for me, like soups.  So, not all weight gaining foods. Thank goodness!

I realize I need to make a conscious effort to start eating better again, which I am beginning to do now.  I will continue to keep myself busy.  I will bake some things but I know not to overdo, and if it is too much for me, I will freeze for another time to enjoy in smaller portions.

So what are things you have indulged in during this time and what do you like? What are you doing to keep yourself busy?

Continue to stay healthy, safe and happy!

Belle xo

 

Health

You Deserve Help

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Just because someone may be worse off than you, does not mean that your pain and need for help is not valid.

This is Dr. Julie Smith. She is amazimg and always has helpful input. A clinical psychologist, online educator, blogger and owner of a private practice in England.

The above link is from Tik Tok. Her website is https://doctorjuliesmith.com to find out more about her.

Belle xo

Thought Of The Day

Thought for the Day

*Quote by Robyn Conley Downs

**Picture by me on one of my daily walks 🙂

My thought for today is to find the strength you need to share your message.  There are people out there that need to hear what you have to share, for they are going through what you have gone through and need to know they are not alone.  So, have the courage to speak up.  You have those that care for you and know your story.  They are behind you showing their support so that you can help others.

I know this is easier said than done at times.  Boy, do I know this! But to share is to help others and it gives great joy to be able to do this.

Have a great day!

Belle xo

Positivity

I Am Amazed

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I know I haven’t been here a while and I don’t normally go on a rant about things, but I have to say I am very disappointed. 

I am disappointed in some people, things I am seeing and reading right now. 

I see this world going through some very hard times.  I see people struggling to get by because they had to be let go or laid off from their work because businesses had to close to protect themselves and the people around them.  I see people getting sick and struggling to hold on to their lives through the doctors and nurses that have to be there through it all.  I see families worried and scared because friends and family members are in hospitals where they can’t get to them to support them because they cannot go in for their own protection.  I see “essential workers” having to be out there putting themselves in the midst of possibly getting this virus just to get people things they need or to protect people.

And yet…there are people complaining that they are bored having to stay home.  There are people searching social media and jumping on other people’s pages and posts being negative and bashing others.  I see and hear people being negative and disrespectful of others.  Not thinking that someone may be going through something more.  Possibly depression, possibly sadness, possibly loss, possibly anxiety….who knows! Some people are so self-absorbed and judgmental of others, they don’t think about what they say or how they say it might affect someone.  Heaven forbid someone to be empathetic and put themselves in another person’s place for just a few moments. To think about what that person might be going through before opening their mouths or saying something!

I understand, by what I have learned growing up and I have learned through life, that it is not for us to judge others, nor to put our thoughts, feelings or beliefs on others.  This is a world of free will.  Yes, you can say what you want because we all have a right to say anything.  But please, don’t be so blinded in your own self that you don’t look to see what is around you, what someone else might be going through or what someone else might need.

At this time when the world is going through so much, we need positivity.  We need understanding in each other.  We need support, helping others and bringing a little joy to this madness we are going through right now.  Stop and think before you react to something or someone.

Please, if you can, look around you.  See what you can do to help.  Help by volunteering to get groceries for a neighbor, help by showing someone on one of the social media platforms that you appreciate them and are there if they need to talk.  Show others that this world does have positive special people still and that there is hope for our future.

Show that all races, all nationalities, all ethnicities, all genders can work together and support each other instead of trying to bring upheaval to all that is going on right now.  Instead of trying to shame others for who or what they are.  Instead of “taking sides”, just work together. If you feel you have been misrepresented or shamed for who you are or what you believe or do, why would you not think about that before doing the same thing to someone else?  I have seen so much of this lately and it saddens me.

No one is perfect but we are all perfectly different in our own way.  We will not be like anyone else because, as a wise person has told me, “if we were all the same, what a boring world this would be.”

I know we can do better folks. I have seen it.  This world amazes me every day when I see the beauty around me.  When I see caring helpful souls that are there for others.  It only takes a little bit of your time in a day to give a helping hand, ear or words.  It makes such a big difference, not only in that other person’s life but also in yours.

Belle xo

Me, writing, topics, sharing

Continue to Learn and Be Enlightened

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I have not felt like writing very much recently.  Mainly because no matter what I do, I am constantly being watched for what I write.  And if by any chance I say something “wrong” (even with hardly any followers on my blog) an alarm goes out and I am shut down again.

I started this blog to be able first to share things, like a journal, and not affect anyone, and yet get thoughts out of my head, get support, and show others possibly going through the same thing that they are not alone.  Second to be able to write poems and stories, etc, and let my creative side spill out and not be held inside.  And yet, here it is being held in again because of this.

I have reached a place in my life where I am finding the real me, understanding some things I didn’t before and feeling more myself than I have in such a very long time.  I have found that I am an extremely sensitive person of which I thought meant I was needy and over the top.  Now I understand it just means that I have a gift for feeling things from others around me in which makes me extra empathetic.  Now I understand why I could always put myself in other people’s shoes and feel what they felt and understood their side of things better than most.  And why my emotions sometimes were all over the place when in certain situations. And also why I needed and enjoyed being by myself.

It also explained why I felt the need to help those around me and take on their problems when they were not mine to take on.  Why I don’t like chaos and want everyone happy around me, so I tried all ways to make those around me happy, even if it meant I was not happy.  But I thought I was happy because others around me were.

Understanding these things has put more confidence in me to the point I feel my fire coming back.  The light inside of me is growing strong again.  I still cringe when someone I love is not happy.  But I understand more now, that I have to be happy too and my life has to be lived separately as well as with the ones I love.  So that we are all happy in our own way.

Anyway friends, I just wanted to share these things and I am finding my voice again and my confidence in my writing and love of creativity.  Hopefully, because of this, I will have some things to share very soon.

Until then, stay well.  Keep an open mind and keep learning in life and in you.

Belle xo

Weird dreams and thoughts

Blood Rain

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You know those intense dreams? The ones that feel so real yet you know it can’t be?

One I had a few nights ago:

Friends are going to a dirt bike race they are participating in.  I am busy so decline going.  It is a night time race.  As I am walking down the street, after talking to a few and seeing more pass by from the track, I hear the fireworks going off.   I look down and I see a place where I must have scratched a small scab off of my hand and made it bleed.  But then there is another.  And then more.  I realize suddenly that it is not from me! The sky is raining blood! I run and seek shelter, but see none.  Suddenly I come upon a bleacher and it is covered for sun shade during the day.  I race under the cover and stand as far away from all sides as I can.  I am breathless and don’t know what to do.  I look around for help and some insight as what to do.

Then I am awake, hot and sweaty.  Well, that was something.  What the hell???

Yep.  Very weird!

Belle