I have made a few mistakes in my life. We all do. Do you feel me in this? But if we don’t make mistakes we don’t learn, right? I can definitely say I have learned a lot in my fifty-three years of life so far. Mainly by experience, but a lot by observing, asking questions, and listening as well. I love to learn. We learn every day. We learn from each other, from our children, from nature, from our parents and grandparents, from strangers and everything around us. Even from ourselves. I think I have learned more from myself in the last few years than I ever thought possible. I mean, what in the world are you going to learn from yourself, right? A LOT!
Just A Few Lessons Learned
I have learned that I did not love myself. I learned that I had to let go of someone I loved dearly to be able to move on. I learned that things are not always as bad as they seem. I learned that our minds are not good to get lost in. I learned that even though you love others, their love for you can be changed by others, so you have to let them learn the truth on their own (yes, this one kills me). I have learned that what one person believes in you, even though it is not the truth, you cannot change that belief until they are willing to see the truth and admit it. I have learned that no matter what you do for some to help until they are ready, they will not help themselves. I have learned that you shouldn’t beat yourself up over things. I have learned that others are very judgmental, even those I love, and that hurts a lot, but I cannot control how they feel and I cannot put that on myself. And there is so much more, but I will stop there.
So, You See…
I have grown a lot in myself and it’s a shame it took until now, but I was always a “late bloomer”! Ha! Oh well. The thing is, I hope for my sons’ sake that they do not wait so long to be aware of all these things. I hope they learn from my mistakes and their father’s mistakes and their own mistakes combined to be set way ahead of where we are at our age! That would be great! They will be very wise if so 😉
Hopefully, they will not be stuck in their ways and/or judgmental that they are not open to seeing others and the good that is there that they can learn from or that they themselves can help or teach. They are both good men and I know it is there in them! I am so very proud of them every day and love them so very much. I don’t think they realize how much. And they have lovely wives that are beautiful intelligent women and are and going to be, the best moms to their children too. I look forward to seeing what the years to come bring to them!
And Now You Know
Anyway, I was in my feels this afternoon and wanted to jot it down and get it all out of my head. You know how that goes. I have felt a lot of anxiety during these months of the Covid-19 strife. Do you feel me in this too? Yes, I have talked to family and friends. I have even seen them. But it’s not the same. You are constantly cautious, wearing masks everywhere you go. Washing your hands or using the anti-bacterial liquid wherever you go (and if you don’t, feeling like you must). And when living alone it seems a bit more cut off from things. Thank goodness for my kitty being here. She keeps me laughing with her antics all the time.
I will be happy to finally be over all of this and move on, that is for sure!
Have a happy wonderful day my friends! I know I will 🙂
I witnessed an accident last night first hand. As I was sitting outside my house, beside my new fire pit, listening and watching a friend’s Live. I live beside a somewhat busy road in a town on the northeastern side of Georgia near I-85. People drive to fast down this road all the time. It is full of curvy twists and turns throughout and the speed varies from forty-five to fifty-five depending on the area you come to. In my area, it is supposed to be forty-five.
There have been several one-car accidents in this one particular curve. Not many have been reported. They are usually cars going too fast that run off the road and they start back up and drive on. On occasion though there will be a bad one. This was one of those occasions.
As I was sitting by my fire pit, I heard a vehicle coming down the road which sounded as if it was going too fast. I thought in my head it should really slow down or it might have an accident. Then as it came into view I saw a black truck. It came around the curve, hit the edge of my grass (which by the way is the top of a hill down to my lawn), he tried to overcompensate, to the left, then once again to the right, throwing the truck sideways into the trees across the street, smashing hard.
It took me a second to register what had actually happened. I then jumped up, scrolled out of the Live, into my phone, dialed 911, and was talking to a dispatcher who in turn connected me to the dispatcher to my county. Within, I think, less than five minutes the ambulance was out here. Then the other emergency vehicles such as police and fire trucks were here.
In the meantime, a few people that live in the neighborhood behind the trees he hit came around to make sure he was okay while I was on the phone and others started pulling over to make sure if help was needed. He slid out of the truck and as soon as the guys in the ambulance were out, they had him in the ambulance checking him out.
Life Can Change So Quickly
It’s amazing how quickly life can change within minutes. Here I was sitting quietly beside my fire pit enjoying my friends Live and suddenly someone almost lost his life for going too fast around a curve right in front of my eyes.
My point is, yes be cautious and know your limits. But also, enjoy life. Tell those you love that you love them, make sure they know it. Do the things you want to do, try the things you want to try, don’t wait for things to happen, make them happen. Go for it! You may never get the chance again. One of my favorite sayings is Live, Laugh, Love!
My Challenge To You
Know this, with each negative, there is a positive.
So as my challenge to you, do me a favor. As you end your day, think back and for each bad or negative thing that was in your day, think about the good or positive thing that happened to replace it.
Being so focused on my podcast and content for it, I have been very slack in my content here. I have a hard time seeing how people do all the things and don’t burn out!! Seeing folks that do writing, podcasting, YouTube, all media, etc., I don’t get it. I mean, ALL THE THINGS, along with family and sometimes even a full-time job! How the heck do they do it????
And here is little ole me, with my ADD self trying my hardest just to focus on getting my content done for my podcast and not get lost in the social media as I try to put the content on that social media for my podcast! Haha!
But Why Go From Blog To Podcast?
Maybe it would help if I explained a little bit better about how and why I decided to start doing a podcast.
As all of my reader friends pretty much know, I started writing my blog to get me through some rough times. A lot of us start blogs for this reason. Some for other reasons, like a live journal, or a calendar to keep tabs on ourselves, etc. Mine was to share things I was going through, get them out of my head, and maybe have others going through the same thing join me in understanding. Not to bash anyone or to get revenge. It was for my own peace of mind and relief from thoughts. And wow did it help! And the people and friends I have met have been wonderful!
So, in the last six months, since I arrived home a few days early from my trip to London because of the emergency of COVID-19, I have gone through many ups and downs, in not only emotions but happenings, thoughts, decisions, and experiences.
Emotions, Happenings & Thoughts
Like so many, I have gone through a multitude of emotions because of Covid-19. It started with the anxiety of having to decide to come home a few days early from my trip and be self-quarantined for fourteen days by myself. My parents graciously got me the things I would need initially and left them in the house so that once I was home that evening I would have them immediately. Then, over the next two weeks I had two close friends and my parents (again, bless them) check on me and bring me things voluntarily and when needed. I continued on past those fourteen days being uneasy and not knowing what to expect with this virus pandemic.
Believing I would be okay but worried about others I love, I was getting restless and falling into the negative thoughts. Not working, so I was trying to determine what to do to keep myself busy, continued to attend my counseling online, and do regular exercise so that I would not become lazy and depressed. Feeling and seeing all the hate and anger stemming from the social distancing and the worry people were going through, along with media hyping up certain things to raise anxiety, I was determined to find something I could do to help bring some positivity and light into the world if just a little bit.
My decision to lend my voice into the positivity mode
Once I realized I couldn’t do the singing that I love on a regular basis during this virus social distancing and quarantine time, I had to figure out some way to use this voice of mine. I was given this gift for a reason. So, after thinking long and hard about it, I decided to start a podcast. Why not, I thought! If it doesn’t work out I haven’t lost out on anything. But if I don’t try, I definitely might lose out on reaching someone or changing someone’s life in some way. Even my own. So, I started my journey with my podcast Coffee, Wine, & Chocolate. It released on August 17th with the trailer and then August 24th was the first full episode. Starting off slow and steady with short episodes, and I will eventually have a little longer ones with interviews but hopefully not much longer. It seems people like the short and sweet ones! Ha!
I have gotten some really good feed back so far. I have received two reviews and a few ratings. So, if you have listened to my podcast, if you would please take a few minutes to write a quick review, it would be much appreciated and helps others find me! 🙂
And if you haven’t had a chance to listen yet, please check it out. It is Coffee, Wine, & Chocolate. Found on every podcast player you prefer. The apple player link is in the title above. If you look it up in Google it is in Google podcasts, listen notes, buzzsprout, podchaser, and so many more!
Thank you my dear friends, readers and listeners! Have a blessed, happy positive day! And if it’s been a hard one today, think of one positive thing that has made you smile today or that you are thankful for today. And know there is at least one. For every negative there is always a positive.
I know many have taken the test and shared it with those they love or are partners with. I feel it is a very helpful tool for couples and anyone to know about themselves and those they love.
There are five love languages, and they are Words of Affirmation, Acts of Service, Receiving Gifts, Quality Time, and Physical Touch. We all steer toward certain ones more than others as our preference. Once you take the quiz you then will know for yourself the love languages you lean more towards than others to make you the happiest. It’s a nice little way to get to know yourself and your partner or those you love just a little bit more.
I took the quiz at the end of March, when we were first starting to quarantine, self-isolate and social distance ourselves because of Covid-19, I saw a person mention the quiz in something I had read and decided to do the quiz again myself. It had been probably a year or two since I took the quiz and I couldn’t remember what my main one was and what order the rest were in.
My answers in the order I prefer:
Physical Touch – You feel especially loved when your partner touches you in loving ways. Whether it’s a spontaneous kiss, playful cuddle, or gentle, loving touch on the arm, you feel that touch conveys the love your partner feels. You don’t understand why people would prefer to sit far apart on different chairs or couches, when they could be touching or in each other’s arms. when walking together, you really enjoy your partner reaching out to hold your hand, and you’d never say no to them giving you a massage.
Quality Time – There’s nothing that makes you feel more loved than spending quality one-on-one time with the person you love. Great conversation and eye contact, flowing conversation, laughter and just being together. While fancy gifts and kindly spoken words are nice, you’d trade them any day for uninterrupted “together” time. You love it when your partner’s mobile phone is turned off or they sacrifice other important activities to spend time with you. Whether it’s a fancy restaurant or just cuddling up on the couch to watch a movie and laugh about it together, you’re happiest when you can share experiences together.
Words of Affirmation – You feel extremely loved when your partner compliments you on the way you look or on the things you have done. You love their encouragement and verbal support and save their cards and love notes as some of your most precious items. You are always filled with such love when you receive a card they’ve written that expresses their heartfelt love for you in their own little way, little poems they might write, or if they ring you spontaneously during the day to say they love you.
Acts of Service – You feel so loved when your partner does little things to help you. You always notice when they are thoughtful and put themself out to assist you, even if you could do those things yourself. There is such a sense of love and thankfulness you feel when they do this.
Gift Giving – There’s nothing better than receiving a thoughtful gift to make you feel loved in a relationship. Whether it’s a single flower or something much more expensive, you love being fussed over, spoilt, and thought of. The fact that your partner thought to give you something then organized it is very meaningful to you.
As you see, physical touch is my number one, with a score of 32. I notice I do this myself when around those I love and/or care for. I am always touching them, either on the arm, leg or back. Then quality time followed with a score of 30, of which I love to spend quality time with my partner and share things, getting to know them more and more; words of affirmation with a score of 29, in which I really appreciate words from a person being proud of me, nice complements or that I have done well in something; and both acts of service and gift giving with scores of 24 each, where, even though I like being taken care of and receiving gifts, which shows the other person cares for me too, I would much rather be the one doing the taking care of and giving gifts.
Now that you see how it works and what you are doing it for, go take the quiz and have fun finding out your love languages! It’s entertaining and very interesting to find out if you are right in the way you think your love languages will turn out.
Let me know, if you get a chance, in the comments below what your love language order is! 🙂
Ok, you guys! I am so nervous! I have taken way longer than I had realized it would take to get this underway but it is finally time! Over two months ago I shared with you that I would be starting a podcast in “a couple of weeks.” That was me having no clue how much time and patience it takes to get something like this started! Ha!
So, I have finally reached that place in time, almost eleven weeks later, where I am releasing my podcast! (EEEEK!!)
The name of the podcast is Coffee, Wine, & Chocolate – Inspired by People, Places, & Things. It focuses on positive, inspirational, and motivational people, and I will be talking about places and things as well. It will be carried on all players where podcasts are carried and heard (at least once it is approved). The introduction trailer is out now and can be found on Spotify, Stitcher, Podcast Addict, Podchaser, Deezer, and Listen Notes. Soon to be on Apple iTunes, Google Podcast, Amazon Music, iHeart Radio, Pandora, and TuneIn.
I am in the process of getting the website for the podcast up and running and will be sharing the podcast there as well. There is also a Twitter page of which I had to shorten the name to fit (@CoffeWineNChoc). 🙂
Yes, I am excited and nervous! I am excited because it is finally happening, and nervous, for the same reason but so much more. It means so much to me and I am just hoping others will like it too and hopefully get something out of it. I, personally, am getting something out of it by just sharing the people (which is where I am starting) I have learned of and know. Very soon I will be sharing interviews as well.
I hope that you will be able to join me each week. The episodes will be coming out each Monday and of course available at any time after that. Once you have listened, if you will do me a favor and rate and review the episode, I would greatly appreciate it. And, it will get the podcast seen more and help me out to let me know how I am doing.
Once you have listened and an idea or two comes to mind, please let me know! I would love to get any suggestions that I could possibly use for a later podcast episode!
Sending out a thank you to all those who have encouraged me and told me they are excited for me to get this going!! You don’t know how much it means to have you all by my side and not doubting that I could do this! I love you!
And so, off we go! The first full episode will be out next week, the 24th of August. It will be covering the one person I have written about here on this blog already, JT Laybourne. Each episode that comes out in the next four weeks will be less than 20 minutes with just me talking about people and this podcast. Once I start doing interviews the episode could be up to an hour. But I will not let it go longer than that.
Thank you all once again for your support and for coming back, even when I am gone for weeks at a time!
This past Tuesday, June 16, was my birthday. I used to make a big deal about birthdays and made sure my boys had a cake, gifts and we celebrated in style with a great dinner too. But as they got older, and I was not celebrated as much as I celebrated others, I started thinking it wasn’t a big deal and so made less and less of a celebration of other’s birthdays. I didn’t stop, I just didn’t make it as big a deal. I still made sure they had a cake, gift, etc., but I just didn’t go all out as I did before, especially as the boys got older, did things with their friends, and then went on to college.
I still never forget a birthday of my friends and/or family and always make sure I tell them happy birthday. I make sure my boys get birthday cards with at least a gift card or money so they can get what they want or have a dinner on me, and I try to call to talk to them on their special day. Unfortunately, even then I sometimes don’t get to talk to them nor get a callback. But, now that they are married and busy, I kind of understand. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying I like it, but I do understand now that they have jobs, and a life separate from mine, their mom is no longer number one anymore. Sad, but true. That is how it should be though. As long as they don’t forget about me. 😉
To top things off, with the dreaded COVID-19 putting stress on the world, having to be in quarantine, and being worried about things opening up and how to deal with the changes, well, that just added to it. Granted, I did get lots of messages from friends and family telling me happy birthday, I was able to have lunch with my parents and had dinner with my friends across the street from me, but it just did not feel the same as it has been before. I wasn’t at the store I manage for my parents, so no talking to people. I didn’t have the one I love beside me to enjoy time with. I was on my own for most of the day and evening. I felt off the whole day and then had an emotionally charged day the next day. Hate those days!!
I also had to remind myself that others are going through things right now too and may not be dealing well with all the changes. They also may feel so cut off from others, they do not think of those special events or things that they normally remember because they are affected by other things happening, or not happening, in their lives.
My point is, I had a lot of thoughts and feelings in the last two days, and I want you all to know something. I want each of you reading this to know, you do matter! Make sure that you are celebrated and have a great day on YOUR special day. Even if it is you that celebrates you on your own. Make sure you take care of you and have fun! Yes, you want to make sure others know they are special and you remember them, but also make sure you are remembered too. You were put on this earth for a reason. We all were. You are worth the time and effort to be celebrated! Just know this and don’t ever think otherwise!
These are weird times we are in right now. This too will be behind us soon and there will be better days to come. Find something to enjoy. Something that makes you smile. Be silly, dance like no one is watching, laugh out loud as much as you can, love those around you, and make sure the ones you love know it. (You really can never say it too much!)
If you ever need someone to talk to or just want to say Hi, please don’t hesitate to leave me a message. I will respond.
I love you all!
(*These are thoughts and things I deal with. Your situation and life, of course, is different, as we all are. Doesn’t make a difference if worse or better, we all matter.*)
I used to think I was weird because I was so sensitive to things and people around me.I thought something was wrong with me.
At times I would think, “why can’t I say what I need to say without crying or getting emotional?” Or, “what in the world am I giggling for or feeling all these butterflies in my stomach just because I want to say something?” Or the craziest of all, “why does this person make me feel overly protective over this other person,” or “wow! this person makes me feel excited and nervous when I am around them.”
I have learned that I am a somewhat highly sensitive person. But more to the point, an empath (actually an empath with highly sensitive person inclinations), if you will, and to me, that is weird yet strangely a relief to know.
I know many do not believe in the word and what it stands for and much less what that means about the person that is supposedly this “thing.” Believe me, I have tried to deny it for a very long time because I felt it put me in a vulnerable place, even more than just feeling it all. Now I am putting myself out there as having that ability and being looked at as weird, odd, and a bit out there.
I now realize it is a gift that was given to me and if I trust it, I can learn from it and help others with it.
No, I am not some great person and I will never see myself as being special (I never have), but I do know I was given my many special creative gifts for a reason.
I have decided it is now time to put my gifts to better use.Yes, I am singing when I can.Yes, I am writing a lot.But, now I will put both my voice and writing together and I will be starting a podcast in a few weeks.It will be centered around positivity.Positivity, motivation, and inspiration from people and things in this world of ours.
There is too much anger, hatred, selfishness, and childish acts of harm in this world.It is time to get more love, positivity, and hope back into it.Even if it is just a little at a time.I am going to do my part, and put my little bit back into it, one week at a time with my podcast. Then along with that, continue throughout with content on my blog and all social media sites.
I know it will not be for everyone.But I will be here trying to shine a little bit of light on the world.I will be here to share and to listen.If I ever do not have an answer for a question asked, I will find someone that does and point you in that direction.If there is a subject or a person you would like me to cover, please let me know.I welcome suggestions.Now, I will not always take the suggestions, but will always welcome them.
I am but a small account right now.One small voice in the many billions out there.But, I will do my best and my part to help in some way with my voice and learning that I share.For that is what, and all, I have to offer right now.
So, in a week or two I will share the name and art of my podcast to look for and then in a couple of weeks, I will be giving you the information you will need for my podcasts, the places you can find it and the other social media sites as well.
Right now, I am on twitter (@WonderingBelles) and Instagram (wonderingbelle or Belle Scribe) and I will put the information there as well.
I am excited and nervous about this new adventure.I know it is the right thing to do and share.
I hope you will join me, enjoy the experiences, and share with others.I love you all and look forward to your input and feedback once it all gets started! 🙂
You want to make someone’s day today? If you are out and about today, for I know many places are opening back up, think of something nice about each person you pass or come in contact with. Even better, tell them! 🙂 Or, if you still are not going out, but are on social media, tell someone on your social media.
Now how did that make you feel? Make your day by making someone else’s day better.
There is too much negativity in the world today. People are dealing with depression, anxiety, loneliness, and who knows what else. If we can just make a difference by making someone smile or feel better about themselves, even if only briefly, you never know how that might turn someone around to looking at things a little differently, a little better.
It always does my heart good to get a smile or a response of thanks for just a simple nice comment. I normally do it just because I see something about that person I like so I want to say it. Their eyes, hair, clothes, shoes, the way they carry themselves or smile. Anything!
Have a great day and share the love whenever you can 🙂
When it comes to guilty pleasures, what is yours? Do you like Coffee, wine, and/or chocolate? I sure do! All three!! What else do you enjoy?
Have you found things you like during this time of staying home (during the Coronavirus pandemic) that you didn’t like before or hadn’t thought you would like?
I normally eat really good and only splurge every now and then on things that are yummy but not really good for me and a healthy body. But, during this time at home, I have been baking sweets and bread that I normally would not. So, in doing so I have done a little overindulging. Ha! Once I realized I was doing this, I started giving the things I was cooking to friends and family. 😉
I have also made things that are not bad for me, like soups. So, not all weight gaining foods. Thank goodness!
I realize I need to make a conscious effort to start eating better again, which I am beginning to do now. I will continue to keep myself busy. I will bake some things but I know not to overdo, and if it is too much for me, I will freeze for another time to enjoy in smaller portions.
So what are things you have indulged in during this time and what do you like? What are you doing to keep yourself busy?